Matters of the Heart

Hello friends,
     It seems to me that my heart will just not be quiet in regard to what I should do in my search for the perfect woman that I want to spend the rest of my life with.  So once again I turn to this blog to get these thoughts and feelings out of my heart and mind.  It always seems like I have these thoughts late at night.  I guess it is because bedtime is when my mind is not busy with other things, and the issues that are the deepest in my heart start to work their way back to the front of my mind.  I feel like I've been denying my true feelings over this past year since the breakup, and I feel like the Eharmony search may be God's way of telling me that I do not need to keep on looking for someone because either I've already found the person, or because God is yet to reveal that person to me.  But I truly believe that He has already shown me that person, and for some reason, the first time didn't work out the way I wanted it to.  However, I now feel like I am at a point where I need to take a stand and do something bold, because if I wait too long, I may never get a chance to make my true feelings known.  The last thing I want to do is risk losing the chance at being with the one that I love for the rest of my life.  I just pray that God would give me the courage to do what must be done.  I also ask that God would give me someone to talk to about this, because this is a big decision that I have just made, and this time I do not intend to allow anything to mess up this chance!  Jesus please be with me so that I can say the right words to her at the right time and place, so that I can have a chance to prove to her just how much I really do love her.  In all I do, I will trust in You, and  may Your will be done.    God please bless me and be with me,
   Amen