Hey everyone, I'm back and I have something really important to get something out of my heart that has been causing me a great amount of heartache and pain.  Last night it was so bad I could feel it as a tight feeling in my chest, like a fist was squeezing my heart.  Even though its been over six months, I still am unable to get her out of my heart.  Even though I want to move on in my life, I just seem to be unable to stop loving her.  When I told her that I loved her, I meant it.  I'm still struggling with how I could have felt such a powerful force that told me that she was the one that I was to live the rest of my life with.  I just don't want to keep on living my life without her, but unfortunately she was the one who ended it, so there is not much that I can do in a direct fashion.  Until I either get her back, or God leads me to another angel, I will have to deal with the heartache that is going to come.  I guess when you truly love someone so deeply, losing them hurts that much more.  So I'm going to keep on moving forward, and I will trust that God will give me an angel again.